Butterfly elastic

Assalamualaikum and hi to all.. semoga sentiasa dalam lindungan rahmatNya... In sya Allah.. amin..

Saya tau yang blog ni sedikit cacamerba, serabut serabai dan sedikit bersarang (banyak sebenarnya) dengan sawang-sawang kekosongan.. Muahaha..

Yes, this is me, and I don’t care what people will say… My blog anyway…!

For this entry, I would like to share something.. Tapi, I am laughing through and through bila ingat benda ni…

I am the one with braces suffering (Suffer la sangat kan.. muahahaa.. xpun sebenarnya).. and the last appointment with orthodontic specialist was like a big WHOA when you need to put on some elastic on your braces untuk kemaskan kedudukan gigi yang dah nampak jarangnya (instead of the main reasons of applying the treatment). It just take for about 30 to 45 minutes for this time.

During the session, the doc asked me to try to put the elastic on my own. Untuk belajar dan biasakn diri sebenarnya. And the first try make my gum bleed. Not panic enough to cry out loud, but enough to make me terpaku sort of. Macam dalam kepala dok fikir, ‘Takkan setiap kali nak apply, I’ve to bleed my gum?’.. Tapi doc tu kata, bleeding tu benda biasa sebab besi tu terlalu rapt dengan gusi dan memang akan berdarah sebab kedudukannya yang terlalu rapat. Idea the doc untuk cungkil sedikit besi tu make me feel worse. I’ve had enough of ulcer to add some more… **my mind laugh at this.. coz, it is everytime I’ve got that, my friends will worrying about me like I am not have enough to eat. =)

Tapi ceritanya, bukan masa specialist session.. tapi bila dah sampai rumah. I got few persons in my house that concern lebih about my braces and my teeth. Well, ‘orang-orang tua’ kat rumah tu tak de la nak kisah sangat pasal gigi, besi dan elastic bagai.. But when it comes to my anak sedara everyone want to be a specialist in dentist specifically in orthodontic. Setiap kali balik dari specialist review, memang kena hadap bebudak tu untuk cerita dan tunjuk apa yang berubah ecetra ecetra.. Mak pun tumpang dengar la anak dia dok cerita kat cucu-cucu beliau..

On one fine morning, I was trying to put on the butterfly elastic in front of the mirror (opkos kena tengok cermin).. tetiba, one of the is coming and give me one ‘elastic’ and say, “Nini, ni getah untuk gigi nini.”  Stop kejap and tengok kat getah yang dia bagi tu and then gelak bagai nak pecah perut sampai ayah pun keluar tengok and asked why.

Getah bungkus nasi and my elastics. Beza kan...?

=)

Last few days were the day of school holidays to start. Balik la anak sedara yang lain-lain… Kena ulang cerita, but it seems to have fun to see their expressions. Valuables.  The desires to dig the knowledge walaupun baru berapa anak tangga umur… Alahai la~~…

Sampai satu tahap,

“Nini, nak tengok getah!”

And they were ‘gitaring’ my elastic everytime nak tengok tu… Walaupun dah pesan jangan sentuh…

Alahai laa. Layan je la...

Dah la ye,.. Feeling cam dah panjang pulak mereport, mengadu dan menconteng di dada keyboard ni..*I'm having trouble with my keyboard... few keys appears not to work properly..*sigh*

In Sya Allah, we will celebrating the month of blessing this coming weeks.. Moga amal kita betambah dan menjadi asbab untuk kita bertemu dengan Kekasih-Kekasih di alam sana...

Oh lupa nak share something..

Buka Surat Cinta (Al-Quran).

Go through this ayah [Al-Israa':80]

Selamat beramal...

Journey through journey

Bismillahirrahman nirrahim..

Few things happen through and through, day by day and let the time passing by...

On my way back to Terengganu, after all those things that happen to test me and people surround me, I was thingking and this bad imaginative speech comes to mind.

" what the heck have you done.. You ruined everthing that has planned well. And you, the one who make the plan slipped from its timeline."

Then, my other part of consious mind did replied to the bad side of imaginative speech..

"Dear self. You dont know what has been planned for you. Might be, this is the one that will teach you how to be honest to yourself. Thw way you think will effect your attitude and indirectly, affecting your way of life. Sekali kau mengeluh tentang apa yang jadi, sama macam engkau mengeluh tentang takdir Allah... Allah dah tetapkan yang kau kena uji sebegini sebegini dan sepatutnya kau kena hadapinya macamana. Kalau yang ni pun failed, wallahua'lam, apa yang jadi nanti kita tak tau.. Allah dah tetapkan hikmah disebalik setiap kejadian dan kita sendiri kena gali hikmah tu."

And it happened that my other side have no point to fight against this.

It is true that, something happen for a reason. Dan Allah sengaja sembunyikan hikmah tu untuk kita fikir... 

I've found a good quotes on this, but blogging on a travel, quite not my things...

 

"Who did you think you are..?"

To question,
To deny
To disagree
With what had been planned for you..

Banyak mana kau rancang, tersusun mana sekalipun, kalau Allah nak selitkan ujian untuk ukur tahap 'insan' tu, sapa la kita nak lari dari Qada' dan Qadar Allah...

Well dear-self... Please learn something from every minutes of your progressing life...

Full-in-time

Assalamualaikum...

Moga sentiasa dalam RahmatNya.. Lupakan kerja sekejap, do the good deeds.. In Sya Allah, it is counted...

Subhanallah, Wal hamdulillah, wallahuakbar...

Just a random picisan on me.

Yang sekarang ni, tengah kejar dateline tu, dateline ni, submission, appoinments, dates...  Muahaha...

Yap.. most of my friends did say that I am a multitasker.. it is true in a way, but how can we refused to help when another 'big' hand ask for it.

Saya yang jenis tak reti nak tolak bila ones start to say, "Could you please....?"

that was really really my bad thing. sampai satu tahap, saya akan hilang priority yang dah saya tetapkan, dan juga schedule yang dah disusun semenjak awal bulan, confirm akan teranjak melebihi had.

Seriously, I am a dead meat when my schedule was ruined.

Sampai tahap muka dah terasa tebal berganda-ganda untuk postpone a date..

Haila diri... cuba juga untuk cari solusi, tapi end-up, hanya sempat buka tabs dekat search engine without really looking through the content.

Sadis yang amat rasanya bila terkejar-kejar gini...

The real things that come from my mind is, every busy time hit me, my mind, unconsciously akan bekerja lebih pada had dan memang terlalu menyimpang dari skop yang patut difikirkan..

Contoh: few days back, I've need to meet a lecturer. supposedly, I'll think about the project that was in progress... end-up, kepala tengah mengarang ayat untuk picisan-picisan seterusnya... 

And I just can "Ha-Ha-Ha" sebab all materials to jot down were not available...

seriously, banyak rangka dah terbina, tapi nak nyatakan dalam ayat yang sempurna tu, macam... hancur. and, the rest is history. tu je mampu cakap...

am tired, and will ending this post with a very good, soothing track from Muhammad Muqit... try to listen to this (cause I kept repeating this track for countless time)

"my heart craved for a gathering of good people"

Maassalamah...
wassalamualaikum warahmatullah..

Rasa disebalik rasa

Am doing all kind of stories so that hoping it will come true for my future. Want it that way sebab am not believing in love before marriage and prejudice with love after marriage.

Am no good in relation with different gender cause tak nak jadi cepat sangat perasan... Well.. girl, woman and emotion cannot be separate..

Am build a strong concrete wall to that kind of topic because i dont want to be hurt or hurting others. Like i always did..

Hurting myself with my own action is okee. But when it is involving other, it turns to be not so good deep inside me.

A person, once told me that, i am the kind of weird homo sapiens species which is the way i am thinking is too kind to think about other.. To good to apply in real world. To honest in relationship (couldnot find the right word)

As for me, i just want everyone to be happy. Not just remembering the past, but forever apply it in our daily life till forever..

Pegang pada janji Allah... Buat baik dibalas baik... Biar walau balasan adalah di akhirat sana... What goes around comes around... Karma..

..................................................................

When talking about relationship, it do feel hurt when we do know the person we got feelings of, is kinda of like other person that we know...

And for me... Let it be.. It was not the things that ended my life.. Its more to teach me a lesson about life...

Yeah, some people do think that life is suck.. But, open up your mind, you will see the other sides of the 'suck' that actually more colourful than black and white with grey.. Dont bother about that three colour of doom, but when they combine with other colour, they look great.. Just like the prism, rainbow, sunshine, sunset etc etc.. Love them in their own style...

Love is good
Love is suck
We do the choice
Do it well...

Turning point, ey..?

Bismillah and Assalamualaikum....

Moga berada dalam lindungan Rahmat Yang Esa hendaknya... moga kekal kuat diatas jalanNya.. Juga moga terus istiqamah dengan  apa yang kita buat, dengan harapan improvement yang semakin baik, ke arah yang lebih elok harapnya...

Insyallah, these few minutes coming, I'll turn to a 'new' me. In term of number, actually. Insyallah Face it with a really huge responsibility on my ownself.. Counting on my good deeds yang memang sikit.. yang mana bila rasa dah banyak, tapi sebenarnya belum pasti Allah pandang pun. kita je yang rasa, "Aku dah baik bila buat ni." "Aku dah baik bila buat tu." dah rasa baik di mata Allah (*me, actually... try to counter myself with these self-confident... Astaghfirullah...)

Baik ke tak kita di mata Allah...?

Bukannya dengan cara pemakaian yang tentukan Allah pandang kita ke tak.

Dan bukannya dengan cara percakapan yang tentukan Allah pandang kita ke tak.

Dan bukan juga dengan tingakahlaku yang menentukan Allah pandang kita ke tak.

Tapi Allah hanya pandang taqwa kita. Yang kita sering dengar dalam ceramah-ceramah agama dan any others media that talks about the topic. Sudah terang lagi bersuluh, bukan hanya spotlight, tapi sedarlah  ianya lagi terang dari sinaran mentari di waktu tengahari. Semuanya tercatat dalam Al-Quran. Hanya kita yang menentukan samada nak ikut atau tidak.

I've bumped on this. Dan memang terasa tertampar dengan isinya. Bukanlah nak kata, kita memang totally macam situasi yang Matluhfi highlightkan ni.. Part of it memang rasa kena atas batang hidung sendiri. Tapi sebenarnya most of it berlaku dalam society kita. Sampai satu tahap, kita sendiri rasa dah biasa dengan orang keliling dan perasaan untuk tegur tu, dah rasa macam luar alam.

 

Your Sins Affect All of the Ummah | Powerful Speech - Mohammad Hoblos

I've bumped to this video few days back and listen part of it on another channel. And it also affect me as well. Yes, Allah is the best planner. And HE did  planned, so that, the me who was listening to this short video, do touched or not. Part of it. And, it's my/your/our responsibility to take action or just stay silent, act deaf to the reminder. Betul lah orang kata, seru tu dah lama ada, sampai dan sewaktu dengannya. tapi kita je yang buat tak tahu. Seruan tu, datang dengan Rasulullah itu sendiri.. sinar dalam jahiliyah. sampai sekarang.

Doakan saya istiqamah dengan jalan ini.

Doakan saya istiqamah dengan pilihan ini.

Doakan jua agar saya tetap istiqamah dengan harapan menuju jalanNya 

This post is meant nothing to others.. Just a hard reminder for me in challenging me,myself and I in some things. Petikan dari Hlovate dalam Contengan Jalanan (sort of, sebab tak ingat the true line).

"Aku tak nak jadi baik sorang-sorang"

 So, tarik juga aku ke syurga... 

dan terselit sedikit harapan semoga apa yang saya post kali ni, biiznillah, jadi aset untuk saya berada dengan anda dan orang yang saya sayang, duduk bersama, bahagia di jalanNya..

Wallahualam.

p/s: di dunia ni, tak kan ada comfort zone. Ingat... sebab apa tak de...? Comfort zone kita adalah akhirat sana. Sebab tu, Allah uji kita untuk kita dapat comfort zone yang benar-benar comfort. Yamg bukan bersifat sementara.

p/s/s: thanks anyway for spending time for this contengan.

Celebrating

Bismillah and assalamualaikum... Moga sentiasa dalam rahmat Yang Esa.

Thanks anyway... 

Just doing good in all circumstance and hoping all things will be fine... Insyallah..

Few days back, we're celebrating the maulid... And am really happy with it. Well, we all celebrating the days we love in our own ways, ain't right..? Even it was an ad-hoc event, yang kononnya nak surprise, but it didn’t work that way.. Yap... Allah do plan better than us..

Yes, me and my celebration.. I'd love to do something secara mengejut.. Alhamdulillah, everybody loves it.. Dan saya pun puas hati... Well... I love crowd in a way... Saya suka pandang, tengok muka-muka yang ceria, teruja dan yang paling penting, muka berkasih sayang.. I can see all that in the crowd that day.. Walaupun ada yang terkejar-kejar ke sana ke mari... Penat dengan urusan masing-masing, sanggup stop kejap untuk spent time together... But we could make it..

Saya suka makan, tapi saya failed masak... But I love to throw a potluck party secara mengejut... Also, I love to see their happy face. Duduk sama-sama, makan and having chit chat... Yang kalau sebelum ni, jumpa pun sekadar senyum dan angguk. Protokol hidup saya... Well, its time to connect. Bonding time... Dan antara objektif untuk 'makan-makan' itu tercapai... Alhamdulillah...

Ni hasil airtangan campak-campak kami.... And everybody loves it....

 Ahaks... I am who am I... The 'me' that my friends know were like:

• I loves to eat. 
• I love to chit chat
• I love to laugh
• I love myself more
• I hate to see people sad
• And more...

Thanks to all dearest friends to accept me just the way I am... Alhamdulillah..

p/s: I start to love cheese in a way... not all the time.. 

p/s/s: I am always counting the Rabiul 'awal.. and its gonna end soon... also counting the date.. apart from maulid, also celebrating something else. that only me, myself and I know the reason..

p/s/s/s: NewYear? *krik krik krik..

Alhamdulillah 'ala kullihal..

 

Hope and Happy

Bismillah...

will be sorry for my language.. do ignore this... i need to unwind the things that i also don't know what and why..

Mata merenung skrin handphone dengan harapan perkataan itu bertukar menjadi sesuatu yang boleh di fahami dan bukan hanya sekadar memberi harapan. Tapi, apa yang di cerna kornea mata hanyalah satu perkataan.

Typing...

Bibir mengeluh perlahan. Tangannya menutup flip handphone dan meneruskan kerja yang dia sendiri tak tahu apa yang perlu di lakukan.

Matanya kembali mengerling handphone yang elok terletak disebelah laptop.

And its pop-out.

+ Don't give false hope if you didn't mean it. Take it serous and you'll find the light of the path you've choose. You've done it almost and for all.. Don't ever start to think to stop... I know you can do it. And again, you know your limit. Just believe in HIM... He is the best planner and He will not let you down just for nothing.. there will be a solid reason for everything.. Just have faith.

Matanya berkacasaat membaca bait perkataan itu, walaupun, lain yang diharap, lain yang terjadi..

'I know, u'll sooth me in your way.' Detik hatinya perlahan. Matanya laju mengerdip menghalang mutiara jernih jatuh. Bagi Aulia, setiap titis mutiara itu amat berharga.

- Thanks anyway.. Really appreciate it. Just to let you know, i've made the decison.. move on will be the right choice for now on. Thanks for your support. And wishing you  all the best for your study.. will keep in touch.

Icon smiley mengakhiri bait terakhir. Aulia tahu, sahabatnya yang satu ini, tak pernah mengecewakannya. Masing-masing sepertinya punya MoU tentang perkara berbangkit hati, perasaan dan sewaktu dengannya. Sandaran atas sandaran berpaksi nasihat dan teguran yang, alhamdulillah, hardcorenya masih diatas jalanNYA.

Bibirnya mengukir senyumana segaris. Pahit tapi perisa karamel. Well, yeah.. hidup memang begitu. Sama macam minum kopi. Mereka yang suka americano, will do great with bitter.. tapi yang suka other than that, they will taste all different tastes.

'At some point, I'm glad to know you, Hope. Even we did not know each other, but we do share the same situation.. do support each other. through thick and thin. Love you, Lillah.' monolog Aulia berterusan.

Persekitaran yang sunyi dengan kerja masing-masing umpama menenggelamkan Aulia dengan masalahnya.

"Aulia, bangkit dari masalah bukan bermakna engkau dah lepaskan masalah tu, tapi hadapinya dengan yakin. Bangkit dengan agresif, bukan dengan pasif!" Gumam Aulia perlahan. Tegas. sekadar telinganya yang mendengar.

Beberapa ketika berlalu, handphone Aulia berbunyi lagi. Ada notis yang perlukan perhatian. Flip phnone dibuka. Hope. Tangannya menekan button view message. Anak mata tunak memandang audio yang dihantar. Mesej yang disusuli dengan serangkap lirik dengan diakhiri dengan...

+ Enjoy this, and u'll find something in it.. in a way, cuba abaikan tajuk tu buat sementara waktu.

Turn wherever you want in life
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them, content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace

~ Labbayk - Wedding Nasheed

  

Dan, bibir mengukir senyum buat ke sekian kalinya.

"Thanks, Hope." Gumam bibirnya perlahan.

* * *lost* * *

Yes, i really, really need that.. Hope and will be Happy in a way... so that , i can kick all the sadness and grumpyness of me.. bad of me, myself and i. don't even know why... and how to unwind it.. normally, need a sip of coffee and all things like -pop-, hilang... but the things is, this time, it doesn't work this way... need the Hope character that will give a really hit my mood that will twist it to be a normal me...

i miss my old-self...

i miss my old-character

i miss my old-timer..

i miss everything about old me..

need that sooo much...

to be new, i start to admire my sis of her ruggedness, slumberness and really independent...  dont ever bother what other says... but i think more of it, i start to be like her in my own way... yes, a person can't be same as other person totally.. but yeah...

Hope of a thing will give a Happy end, but just know that, u stand on the ground. jangan letak harapan yang terlalu tinggi.

other thing:

Bangkit dengan agresif, bukan pasif

Berharap dengan agrasif dan aktif bukaan dengan pasif.

and 

still hope dengan agresif so that, i will overboardly happy dengan aktif.

 

 

Turn wherever you want in life
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them, content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace