Bismillah...
will be sorry for my language.. do ignore this... i need to unwind the things that i also don't know what and why..
Mata merenung skrin handphone dengan harapan perkataan itu bertukar menjadi sesuatu yang boleh di fahami dan bukan hanya sekadar memberi harapan. Tapi, apa yang di cerna kornea mata hanyalah satu perkataan.
Typing...
Bibir mengeluh perlahan. Tangannya menutup flip handphone dan meneruskan kerja yang dia sendiri tak tahu apa yang perlu di lakukan.
Matanya kembali mengerling handphone yang elok terletak disebelah laptop.
And its pop-out.
+ Don't give false hope if you didn't mean it. Take it serous and you'll find the light of the path you've choose. You've done it almost and for all.. Don't ever start to think to stop... I know you can do it. And again, you know your limit. Just believe in HIM... He is the best planner and He will not let you down just for nothing.. there will be a solid reason for everything.. Just have faith.
Matanya berkacasaat membaca bait perkataan itu, walaupun, lain yang diharap, lain yang terjadi..
'I know, u'll sooth me in your way.' Detik hatinya perlahan. Matanya laju mengerdip menghalang mutiara jernih jatuh. Bagi Aulia, setiap titis mutiara itu amat berharga.
- Thanks anyway.. Really appreciate it. Just to let you know, i've made the decison.. move on will be the right choice for now on. Thanks for your support. And wishing you all the best for your study.. will keep in touch.
Icon smiley mengakhiri bait terakhir. Aulia tahu, sahabatnya yang satu ini, tak pernah mengecewakannya. Masing-masing sepertinya punya MoU tentang perkara berbangkit hati, perasaan dan sewaktu dengannya. Sandaran atas sandaran berpaksi nasihat dan teguran yang, alhamdulillah, hardcorenya masih diatas jalanNYA.
Bibirnya mengukir senyumana segaris. Pahit tapi perisa karamel. Well, yeah.. hidup memang begitu. Sama macam minum kopi. Mereka yang suka americano, will do great with bitter.. tapi yang suka other than that, they will taste all different tastes.
'At some point, I'm glad to know you, Hope. Even we did not know each other, but we do share the same situation.. do support each other. through thick and thin. Love you, Lillah.' monolog Aulia berterusan.
Persekitaran yang sunyi dengan kerja masing-masing umpama menenggelamkan Aulia dengan masalahnya.
"Aulia, bangkit dari masalah bukan bermakna engkau dah lepaskan masalah tu, tapi hadapinya dengan yakin. Bangkit dengan agresif, bukan dengan pasif!" Gumam Aulia perlahan. Tegas. sekadar telinganya yang mendengar.
Beberapa ketika berlalu, handphone Aulia berbunyi lagi. Ada notis yang perlukan perhatian. Flip phnone dibuka. Hope. Tangannya menekan button view message. Anak mata tunak memandang audio yang dihantar. Mesej yang disusuli dengan serangkap lirik dengan diakhiri dengan...
+ Enjoy this, and u'll find something in it.. in a way, cuba abaikan tajuk tu buat sementara waktu.
Turn wherever you want in life
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them, content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them, content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace
~ Labbayk - Wedding Nasheed
Dan, bibir mengukir senyum buat ke sekian kalinya.
"Thanks, Hope." Gumam bibirnya perlahan.
* * *lost* * *
Yes, i really, really need that.. Hope and will be Happy in a way... so that , i can kick all the sadness and grumpyness of me.. bad of me, myself and i. don't even know why... and how to unwind it.. normally, need a sip of coffee and all things like -pop-, hilang... but the things is, this time, it doesn't work this way... need the Hope character that will give a really hit my mood that will twist it to be a normal me...
i miss my old-self...
i miss my old-character
i miss my old-timer..
i miss everything about old me..
need that sooo much...
to be new, i start to admire my sis of her ruggedness, slumberness and really independent... dont ever bother what other says... but i think more of it, i start to be like her in my own way... yes, a person can't be same as other person totally.. but yeah...
Hope of a thing will give a Happy end, but just know that, u stand on the ground. jangan letak harapan yang terlalu tinggi.
other thing:
Bangkit dengan agresif, bukan pasif
Berharap dengan agrasif dan aktif bukaan dengan pasif.
and
still hope dengan agresif so that, i will overboardly happy dengan aktif.
Turn wherever you want in life
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them, content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them, content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace
