Assalamualaikum and hi...
Semoga
sentiasa dalam rahmat Allah Azzawajalla hendaknya... Amin..
The title
comes out from the Wrecking Ball lyrics since I am listening to it at the first
hit on this entry.
Allahu.
Truly true, we hardly can spell the
love in right term. Eventhough the situation sounds enough to face it. But we will
never spell it right… this is me…
In this current circumstance, love is
being such a word with beauty and pain as well..
In the meantime, I do wonder myself,
if I really deserve enough to have it.
Most of the time, I sucked myself in
giving and return this one full feeling…
The self-control as well as my
self-destruction were aware of what have been in me.
And to say it worst, for time being, I
am really not myself in expressing any feeling. The stresses are everywhere. The
seeking for stress reliever was failed, and I myself destroyed myself thru
every single kicking seconds.
Yes, it’s killing for what have I feel.
And not knowing how to move on. It just
stuck on the earth.
I know this some sort of blabbering….
But I’ve had enough with people. Never knew that I’ll start to feel boring
towards people…
Maybe my current situation; which means
I am not good in relationship.
Habluminallah, habluminannas,
habluminal ‘alami.
Allahu..this way of feeling make me
sick.. on how to control myself, on how
to react to other..
Yes, we ourselves have our own
fight.. our own circumstances.
And along with it, comes the
surrounding to test and also to keep us on track…
You need to open up a bit for the
light…
Allahu..
Allahu… bantu aku ya Allah…
just a random on me, in these stressful situation and relation..
