Pain enough?

Assalamualaikum and hii...
Moga sentiasa dalam rahmat dan redhaNya.

Few days back,  was really something to me. The things that just happened made me wondered how my life was going through lately...

Does it enough just to wonder about your own life?
Is it enough to compare your life...?
does it make you feel satisfied with what other talks about you..?

or you the one who should about that.
and ask the same questions to you yourself before pointing it to others...

you hurt yourself when you do hurt others.
actually you did the same when others hurt you.

so, why did you cry over the things that you did the same.
dont act nobel like you've never done..
it is pain to have this feeling and yet, you know the reason


I am really really sorry for myself and to you too..

You, the one who next to me..
I am really sorry.
I am sorry to worried about you more than I did worry about myself.
Just that a solid reason for me to talk about you.
Because you the one who 'sit' next to me.
Or else, I would not also bothers.
Just because I am always worried about people in my circle,
The truth is, I love every single persons in my circle.

The same things always happen for every stages in my life.
This make me feel insecure to make a new fresh and good relationship.
Just for you to know..

Again, I am sorry..

Daiman fi Qalbi..

Strength capsule

Assalamualaikum and hi. 

Semoga Allah pinjamkan kekuatan dan ketabahanNya kepada, kita hamba yang sering lalai dengan urusan dunia dan juga terlalu mengikut nafsu...

The truth is, I really really need that strength capsules.. And this is the site that I can pour everything, randomly without anybody noticing the situation. The truth is my emotion state does not resemble the innerself of me lately.. Not knowing the exact reasons, but I think as 'lady emotion' can be a solid reason to give as an excuse. Tapi sebenarnya, deep down, I know the real reason of the situation. It just, the me, does not want the situation getting worse, and creating the awkward environment. I really hate it.

So, I hope this can sooth my heart in a way, and also as future reference for me and you (to whom read this)

You the one have been chosen to be in this path. He know how much strength did your soul posses to face it.

Ni teguran secara direct bila you've drown in your own circumstance.

Betul. Selalu mengharapkan yang sooner or later, sisa-sisa kekuatan yang ada ni, boleh bertahan sampai akhir. Tapi still, kita mengharapkan pengakhiran yang baik untuk setiap sesuatu tu.

Kan... Verily, with the hardship, there is relief. Dua kali peringatan ni dalam Al-quran.

Dan sebenarnya kita rasa pahit usaha kita terbalas dengan manisnya kejayaan tu.

I am holding on this. Dan tambah satu lagi. Pelangi lepas hujan. Tak ramai yang ambil peduli dengan ciptaanNya yang itu. Hanya ketika things getting worse, we will find something to sooth our hardship. 

Jangan lupa, duhai diri, semua yang ada di muka bumi ni, atas perhatian Allah. Even you just tapping the table untuk hilangkan kebosanan.. So, mohon pada Allah supaya Dia tak lepaskan hati kita, perlakuan kita, tutur kata kita juga perasaan dan masa depan kita daripada 'pandangan dan perhatian' DIA.

Ingat, Allah selalu ada untuk hambaNya.. Usaha, usaha dan usaha lagi. Sebenarnya, samada cukup atau tidak kita mohon pada Dia. Adakalanya, kita tak pinta pun, Dia bagi. Semua tu, kadang tak terkira, langsung kita tak sedar.

HE know limit bagi setiap hambaNya. The test, solely for strengthen ourselves to face a more hardship.. Bukan sekadar test tanpa tujuan. Jarang kita sedari benda ni. Paling ringan kita buat mengeluh. Dan at the end, sakit sebenarnya bila kita tak terima kenyataan yang kita sebenarnya di uji.

We live, we love, we let it go.

Just one way to hold on every hardship is to always know that HE always watching over you. He never fails to attend you. He know every single drop tears of yours. HE know every ticking time you spent. HE know everything about you. And HE also know something that you do not know about yourself better.

believe in Him. He never fails to reply you.